Finding the one true...

XVI. And yet, because thou overcomest so

And yet, because thou overcomest so,

Because thou art more noble and like a king,

Thou canst prevail against my fears and fling

Thy purple round me, till my heart shall grow

Too close against thine heart henceforth to know

How it shook when alone. Why, conquering

May prove as lordly and complete a thing

In lifting upward, as in crushing low!

And as a vanquished soldier yields his sword

To one who lifts him from the bloody earth,

Even so, Beloved, I at last record,

Here ends my strife. If thou invite me forth,

I rise above abasement at the word.

Make thy love larger to enlarge my worth!

Sonnets from the Portuguese - Elizabeth Barrett Browning (1806-1861)

Cebu ,  beautiful city of my  mind;  Holy Cross, Santo Nino and Lady of Perpetual Help; Lapulapu and Magellan;  home to otap, rosquillos, masareal  and dried mangoes;  lovely voices and tinkling guitars;  puso or rice in coco leaves aptly named; crunchy lechon and chicharon with laman that rival the best in the market; simple folk and boisterous laughter...what is in this lovely coastal place in the Central Visayas, Philippines  that liberates Xian's Kim to lose her inhibition and wipes  Xian's  forehead of sweat amidst hundreds of Cebuanos...a second time...only here in the city of Cebu.


                                                   
                                             CTO - MBG Mall Show, Cebu City - 10-29-11

                                                Kim and Xian...outward show of affection...

 KimXi Thread - Pinoy Exchange 6-30-12 - Originally posted by kimzime 

Waaaaaahhhhh!!!!Di ako makaget over sa punas pawis ni kimmy kay Xian maylabs niya!!Sanay na sanay!!

Sa harap ba naman ng madlang pipol?Tapos mas lalo pa akong kinilig nung narinig ko boses ni Xian tawag niya name ni Kim ng ilang beses kasi concerned siya kasi nga dinudumog na si Kimmy ng mga tao!tapos nung magdikit na sila,parang may slight na hug siyang ginawa kaya sigawan kami pati ako nawala na!Akala ko nakarecord yung cam ko yun pala nasa standby mode lang!Kaya sigaw palagi ng mga tao "KISS KISS"!*****!Bakit ba di ko nakukunan yung mga punasan moment at slight hug na yon? - Thanks Kimzime.

Twitted 6-30-12

Aliel Kuizon ‏@alielkuizon
Dahil ang hot ng panahon sa cebu. ..napapunas tuloy c kim ky xian. .whew. . Wala ghapon q ka getover sa Face ni kim chiu ))

Aliel Kuizon ‏@alielkuizon
KIM CHIU WHY ARE U SO DAMN PRETTY! XIAN LIM WHY ARE U SO FREAKN' HOT n CUTE . . nawala gud ako poise pagkita nnyo. .****)

Aliel Kuizon ‏@alielkuizon

My 1st time seeing Kim Chiu that close was WOW. . On screen she's "sobrang ganda" pero in person, no word can describe how beautiCute she is

@lodgeanugmarez: @XianLimm ENLOVE *** ang peg nyo kanina ni kim sa grand halad...love it...pero sayang wala man *** free hug...hehehe

                                            CTO - Kim and Xian in Cebu 6-30-12  Part 1

CTO - Kim and Xian in Cebu 6-30-12

So again, what is in Cebu?  What makes people so open at converting to Christianity barely a month of the arrival of the the Spanish Conquistadores in April, 1521 and so brave and bold at defying them  leading to the demise of Portuguese Explorer Ferdinand Magellan commissioned by Spain to find another route to Asia and the Spice Islands.  There is a mix of submission and defiance.  


Is this still prevalent in present day Cebu?  Delving into  Kim  Chiu's persona I see the innate goodness, the shy smile, the easy laughter, the fragility, respect for elders, love of family, religiosity and spirituality but  I also see discipline; a strong will; and contrasting the fragility is her love for extreme sports like bungee jumping, skydiving, car racing and lately she has taken up horseback riding.  She is a good mix of the Cebuano traits.

Ferdinand Magellan (Portuguese: Fernão de Magalhães, IPA: [fɨɾˈnɐ̃w ðɨ mɐɣɐˈʎɐ̃jʃ]; Spanish: Fernando de Magallanes, IPA: [ferˈnando ðe maɣaˈʎanes]; c. 1480 – 27 April 1521) was a Portuguese explorer. He was born in Sabrosa, in northern Portugal, and served King Charles I of Spain in search of a westward route to the "Spice Islands" (modern Maluku Islands in Indonesia).

Magellan's expedition of 1519–1522 became the first expedition to sail from the Atlantic Ocean into the Pacific Ocean (then named "peaceful sea" by Magellan; the passage being made via the Strait of Magellan), and the first to cross the Pacific. It also completed the first circumnavigation of the Earth, although Magellan himself did not complete the entire voyage, being killed during the Battle of Mactan in the Philippines. (For background see Exploration of the Pacific).

Magellan also gives his name to the Magellanic Penguin, which he was the first European to note,^[1] and the Magellanic clouds, now known to be nearby dwarf galaxies.Rajah Humabon of Cebu was friendly towards Magellan and the Spaniards, both he and his queen Hara Amihan were baptized as Christians. Afterward, Rajah Humabon and his ally Datu Zula convinced Magellan to kill their enemy, Datu Lapu-Lapu, on Mactan. Magellan had wished to convert Lapu-Lapu to Christianity, as he had Humabon, a proposal of which Lapu-Lapu was dismissive. On the morning of 27 April 1521, Magellan sailed to Mactan with a small attack force. During the resulting battle against Lapu-Lapu's troops, Magellan was hit by a bamboo spear and later surrounded and finished off with other weapons.^[20]

Magellan's voyage led to Limasawa,Cebu, Mactan, Palawan, Brunei, Celebesand finally to the Spice Islands.

Pigafetta and Ginés de Mafra provided written documents of the events culminating in Magellan's death:(Wikipedia)

                                

                                                            CTO - Magellan's Cross.

                              
                                CTO - Marker - Magellan's Cross.

The City of Cebu (Cebuano: Dakbayan sa Sugbo) is the capital city of Cebu and is the "second city" in the Philippines with the second most significant metropolitan centre and known as the oldest settlement established by the Spaniards in the country.

The city is located on the eastern shore of Cebu and was the first Spanish settlement in the Philippines. Cebu is the Philippines' main domestic shipping port and is home to about 80% of the country's domestic shipping companies. Cebu also holds the second largest international flights in the Philippines and is a significant centre of commerce, trade and industry in the Visayas and Mindanao regions.

Cebu City is the centre of a metropolitan area called Metro Cebu, which includes the cities of Carcar, Danao, Lapu-lapu, Mandaue, Naga, Talisay. Metro Cebu has a total population of about 2 million people. The Mactan-Cebu International Airport, located in Lapu-Lapu City is only a twenty-minute drive away from Cebu City. To the northeast of the city are Mandaue City and the town of Consolacion, to the west are Toledo City, the towns of Balamban and Asturias, to the south are Talisay City and the town of Minglanilla. Across Mactan Strait to the east is Mactan Island where Lapu-Lapu City and an aquarium attraction are located. (Wikipedia)

There is a spirituality in Cebu that one feels once one sets foot in the place.  It was in this city in 1981 that  3 million faithful flocked to the Templete for the Papal Mass of Pope John Paul II; same year that the Sinulog Festival of Cebu  first started.  Cebu beckons and Kim Chiu who spent her early years in this historic and spirit-filled city radiates the essence of this spirituality. 


There is purity in Kim that is fed by God and the Saints of her devotion - Santo Nino and the Blessed Mother - a love for people that one may say, it is no wonder  she was never nominated for eviction during her PBB Teen edition days; declared Big Winner earning 41+ per cent of total text votes; embarked a showbiz career that is still booming as we speak.  The Chinese Cutie of Cebu, childlike and loving, continues to charm everyone from her early days in showbiz since 2006 until today 6 years later.  She has charmed everyone in sight and a special someone who spends a lot of his precious time with her after work--Xian Lim, a fast rising star that is streaking the showbiz firmament with dizzying speed.    




                                            CTO - Kim on the way to superstardom...

                                       

                                          CTO - Xian -  Looking into a brighter future.

                                               Xian Lim at cinemanews 06-29-2012
                                       http://www.youmaker.com/video/svb5-a...36af5b001.html
                                                             ctodiscoverer888

Xian on Cinema News  asked of  his visit to the Our Lady of Perpetual Church in Baclaran with Kim and her Ate Lakam, middle of the night, Wednesday, June 20th, the week prior,  to thank God for His blessings. Amazing young people, choosing to spend time with God in His Church, midweek, to thank Him for His graces.  Faith practised moves mountains.  This, all else set aside,   puts Xian on the top of my list for Kim.  




Cebu, Queen City of the South, a Princess with her Prince come avisiting; humble, down-to-earth, accommodating both; no airs, simple, ever smiling as  its people.  Pit Senyor!




                     CTO - Among Gabayan - Santo Nino, our Guide, composed by Fr. Jed.
                                          rendered by     Cebuana singer Sheryn Regis; 

                         Song speaks of Santo Nino, Protector, Guide, Help  Mediator to the Father,
                                                                    our Lord and God.


Kim Chiu and Xian Lim left for Cebu City morning of June 30, 2012 for the Halad Kapamilya 2012 or Alay ng Kapamilya in Tagalog, an ABS CBN outreach program for the Cebu indigents covering basic needs reminiscent of Kim and Xian's  Carson , CA trip. Their plane ride in a Cebu Pacific Flight was twitted by a co-passenger who got swamped by KimXis wanting to know more; this random guy got starstruck and did not expect the mad rush for him to twit back perhaps take a pic or two as he savored his 5 minutes of fame in the KimXi  fandom world.


gelGELOgeller
Now boarding flight bound for Cebu. @xianlimm and Kim Chiu are also here on this flight. Good looking people ei!!! ‪#starstrucked‬ 
30m Jose Angelo Feria Jose Angelo Feria ‏@gelGELOgeller

"@MPutterill: @gelGELOgeller @xianlimm how about a photo then. ha ha ha.safe trip."-tnx!I don't hav!Dey wer seated 2geder on d front row. 

33m Jose Angelo Feria Jose Angelo Feria ‏@gelGELOgeller
@hapi2beAKO @XianLimm @bingutokki haha! I didn't intend to be a paparazzi! I was just amazed and can't help but tweet it! Beautiful couple!

@gelGELOgeller
yes they were! Xian's seated by the window with Kim beside him! Now, that's detailed! 

35m Jose Angelo Feria Jose Angelo Feria ‏@gelGELOgeller
"@sarjesh7: @gelGELOgeller @xianlimm ..sana may pic ka sa kanila..."-Unfortunately, I don't have coz I couldn't. They were on d front row. 

59m Jose Angelo Feria Jose Angelo Feria ‏@gelGELOgeller
Just landed! Maayon Buntag Cebu!!! 


                    CTO - Kim and Xian in identical  His and Her's shirts-Halad Kapamilya event.

                                                                    Cebu - 6-30-12










So, again, what is in Cebu that has brought Kim out of her shell? What is in Cebu that makes Kim do something so uncharacteristic which conveys some outward show of affection; wiping Xian's brow, twice, both  times  in Cebu; October 29, 2011 and now, their second visit together to Cebu, June 30, 2011.  


So what is in Cebu that makes Kim show her real self more?    I can almost hear Kim say her version of it, " Mainit kasi ang Cebu".


 I searched  and found something  that could be the reason why Kim hangs loose in Cebu. Here it is.


"The Filipinos are divided geographically and culturally into regions, and each regional group is recognizable by distinct traits and dialects - the sturdy and frugal llocanos of the north, the industrious Tagalogs of the central plains, the carefree Visayans from the central islands, and the colorful tribesmen and religious Moslems of Mindanao. Tribal communities can be found scattered across the archipelago. The Philippines has more than 111 dialects spoken, owing to the subdivisions of these basic regional and cultural groups". (AsianInfo.org)


Carefree, non-judgmental, happy where people are happy, accepting...so where the environment is non-judgmental, Kim reveals herself more.  


So, let us then be non-judgmental; let us let Kim be; if she posts photos in her Instagram; let us admire the photos at their face value; appreciating them as they reveal Kim at that point in real time; her thoughts; unless she says so, let us not connect these photos with Xian; let us let Kim reveal them to be so; no speculations, no assumptions as these will just drive her back to her shell. That is just what I see.


There is  one other  place on earth that Kim feels just as she does in Cebu and it is the state of Xian's birth, California.  There, Kim also wiped Xian's brow while they were singing, Just a Kiss.  This is also where Kim revealed to the world that she is triple happy being together with Xian.  So Cali...what is in you?  Cebu and Cali, peopled by carefree people in Kim's perception. Is Kim feeling at home there too?  Could be.  When hearts, minds and souls connect, something good  follows.  Cebu,  Cali,  beautiful places of Kim and Xian's mind!


                                   CTO-Kim and Xian at the Home Depot Center, Carson, CA

                                Performing Lady Antebellum's Just a Kiss; 1:13 for the Punas
                                                                     May 27, 2012

Xian, you are so consistent in finding ways in showing your concern  for  Kim's welfare and Kim  is now reciprocating.  Your friendship has deepened.  May you continue to go, grow and glow in your love and care for one another in God's  will and grace. In seeking  to strengthen this love, may you find  the one true love in one another as you thank the One, True God for the gift of His love for you and the gift of each other!  God is good!

                           
                                         CTO - St. Elmo's Fire - David Foster on the Piano

                    Somehow David Foster composing on piano and the horseback riding woman
                                                         evoke images of Kim and Xian for me.




                                  CTO    When God made you by Newsong and Natalie Grant

-o0o-

Admiration...dismay...what to do...

It is very difficult for children to understand that appearance is not necessarily reality.  Developmentally, it is a complex concept that comes with age.  And, adding to that, experience, which children lack, lends itself to understanding how and why some things are not as they seem.  Thus, young children find it difficult to “not judge a book by its cover.”  In part, this is why children’s films often take on the theme of appearance vs. reality; children’s film, much like parables and folktales, attempt to teach children about the world, themselves, and life.  A children’s film possessing the theme of appearance vs. reality will communicate to children that one should not make a surface-level judgment, that one must get to know something/someone before making a decision, and why making a judgment on appearance alone may be incorrect or harmful.  (Kate Bellmore, The Reel Club)

Reel.

Remember J.R.  and Bobby Ewing?  They were characters in the very popular TV series, Dallas, shown from  1978 to 1991 in the U.S. and 95 other countries all over the world.

The Ewings, Bobby and J.R., are still alive and are continuing their feud into 2012, 21 years after the original show ended.  The  remake in its pilot episode  which aired June 13  and  drew 6.86 million viewers nationwide on TNT cable, showed  Bobby Ewing overriding objection of some members of  the family  as he announced to everyone that he was not in favor of drilling oil in their backyard;  instead he has decided to sell the 347-acre Southfork Ranch. 

Reality.

There is a Southfork Ranch in Parker, Texas .

Parker is still known for it most famous tourist attraction

Internationally recognized for the filming location of the long-running television series “Dallas.” Southfork operates today as a tourist attraction and an event and conference center. It is located just 20 miles north of Downtown Dallas and is open daily, year ’round for tours, parties and special events.

Another reality is that since Dallas aired on the small screen, visitors to Southfork Ranch tripled from 100 to 300 a day  and many  fans have  asked if Southfork Ranch is really for sale.

Why would fans think that Southfork Ranch is for sale?  Bobby Ewing is only a character in a soap opera. 

I have no answer as to what these fans were thinking when they went and asked if Southfork Ranch was for sale.  Has the line between fantasy and reality been erased in the psyche of these fans?  


Was Bobby Ewing so forceful and credible that his offer to sell leapt off the screen?  I can only see that reel may seem real  in the process especially if the mind has some wishful thought for something related to what one watches.

Kim and Xian Show- The Reel and Reality of it.

   

CTO- Xian Lim endorsing Myra Vitawhite Lotion

In following the power and the hottest  loveteam in Philippine Showbiz today , the wishful thinking and the ugly emotions  of a KimXi fan are just laying  beneath the surface of his mind and heart with an ugly emotion such as jealousy rearing its ugly head in the blink of an eye.

    

The KimXi world  turned upside down when word was out of a commercial showing  


Xian frolicking in bed, at the beach with another woman other than Kim.  That it was a 


job did not soften the sight of Xian tenderly looking, tenderly touching and tenderly kissing 


the woman's shoulder.  Gone was the resolve to keep work and non-work separate in 


perceiving the other half of the KimXi loveteam.   Cooler heads prevailed.   and the 


KimXi psyche was set aright. Question now is how will a KimXi fan  survive a movie that 


has Xian kissing  his screen partner multiple times?  The KimXi fan will just  have to go 


back to the following assurances from their fave duo.

        CTO - KimXian interview for Ina, Kapatid Anak - a new teleserye with Maja 


                                                                                            and Enchong.

                                         

In the tail-end of the interview (around 4:40 onwards), Xian was asked if the plot of Ina, Kapatid, Anak which includes a  "mix and match" of the characters would affect him and Kim personally to which Xian demurred, saying, " ...siempre naman, parte po yon ng istorya...hindi naman maapektohan ang personal na buhay".  Simply said, work is work, it won't affect our personal lives."  To Xian there is a clear delineation between work and his ,taking it a bit further,  love life.    Trabaho lang walang personalan.

. A really good friendship blossomed after the soap, so siyempre kasama siya sa new beginning that I am enjoying right now. We’re a team. We’re always going to be working together, yung comfortability namin, our trust for each other, dapat nandun yun.”

Xian Lim says he and Kim Chiu trust each other

4/20/2012 11:58 PM

by: Rachelle Siazon  http://www.push.com.ph/features/7760/xian-lim-says-he-and-kim-chiu-trust-each-other/

                                      CTO - I believe in you by Celine Dion and Il Divo

Xian , a fast rising multimedia  star  is building  success upon success in his endorsements of   products such as Mint Clothing, McDonald McFloat Variants, Promil, TechnoMarine Watch etc. and with his new record album also given away  for the purchase of a certain amount of Mint items results  in a lateral  collaboration  between Xian's endorsements that not only confirms Xian as the new It Guy in the industry  but also increases revenue from both ends. Team KimXi should only bear in mind that any untoward reaction against any of his endorsements may jeopardize its sales, something that a KimXi fan does not wish to happen to Xian or Kim.

Apart from the financial considerations, there is also Xian, per se.  In his interviews, he leans on his having been born under the sign of Cancer and is loyal and faithful to his beloved.  Knowing Kim and her trust issues, Xian would be the last one to set back Kim several steps backwards now that she is slowly getting out of that syndrome. 

                                       CTO - Kim and Xian at Maja's Thanksgiving Party

                                                                6-28-12 Phil. time.

His latest interview together with Kim at Balitang America where they thanked each other profusely for the gift of each other  and Xian's " finally, finally, meron nang nakakaintindi sa akin" is a tell-all to the long-drawn wait for someone who understands  who he is , where he is coming from and what he is up about; a woman, more than amazing and incomparable with the rest would be a hard one  to toss out easily.

Xian's craving is for understanding; the word " finally " uttered  from the heart stems not from a craving for  beauty of face and figure for according to him, "everyone is beautiful" in the world he moves in.  Not everyone can be just the right mix of beauty and inner  beauty that reaches out to his own inner being, the part of him that is beyond the Xian that we see, the ever-smiling Greek god of a man who is free with his hugs and his attentive gaze.  There is a Xian who can be quiet, looking "unreachable" and "standoffish" who is in fact shy and introverted that Kim has coaxed out of his shell and seeing each other, unmasked, they bonded.

                                       CTO   Kim and Xian  Sporting the same hand signs.

  
                                          
                                        CTO -  Kim and Xian sporting the same pendants.

In Kim's world before Xian, Kim was a sponge in a world where Gerald was a demigod who ruled her psyche, her whole being that looking at her, one could not imagine her without her  alter-ego, Gerald.  It was to this that the Kimerald fans gravitated and had their psychological clocks or their being  fans were set to.  In their heart of hearts there was no imagining a world without the Kimerald being together.  Their being together is a constant to them; no change is conceivable. The change came 2010.   To the Kimeralds, the  life-changing event in 2010 never happened; to them Kim and Gerald are still together.

I believe emotionally-engaged fans  ignore the distinction  between fact and fiction, between reel  and what is real and let their judgment be impaired  allowing ugly emotions to come to the fore when what confronts them is contrary to what they hold dear or cling to something they wish for to be happening vis-a-vis  what is actually happening.

This happened at the height of the Kimerald breakup. The Kimeralds could not accept the reality that the personal relationship is gone along with the separation as a loveteam.  The Kimerald fans persist in retaining their own false reality driven by the great desire to preserve the status quo of the Kimerald personal lovelife even with  evidence showing the contrary.

The Bea phase, the Sarah phase are ignored.  There is only the Kimerald phase and even if they are not seen off-cam and even if Kim spends all her off-work hours with Xian, it is still Gerald who remains Kim's boyfriend in their thinking.  They are existing in a time warp; how long can they stay in this false reality is anybody's guess.

CTO- Gerald Anderson and Kim Chiu in a Star Magic movie - Crazy Love

The  Star Magic is celebrating its 20th anniversary with a movie that  has Kim and Gerald  return  into the big 

screen  after a hiatus of two years.

  

Gerald Anderson (left) visited a gay bar to prepare for his role as a macho dancer in Star Magic's upcoming movie tentatively titled Crazy Love. He is paired with former flame Kim Chiu (right).--Pep-5-28-12.

Emphasize "former flame", Kim Chiu. 
      




Gerald on Kim.HAPPY FOR KIM. Nadako naman ang usapan sa dati niyang girlfriend na si Kim Chiu. Aniya, masaya siya sa takbo ng "special friendship" ng dating kapareha kay Xian Lim.
“Happy ako for them.http://www.pep.ph/news/34639/gerald-anderson-denies-going-out-with-sexbomb-dancer-kami-nga-ni-sarah-di-pa-kami-nag-date-so-pa39no-pa-sa-ibang-babae/1/3c66-28-12.29-1211e1b9f1123138140926_7.                                   CC

Kimerald fans continue to   believe that Kim and Gerald  are still together; this  after a very public break-up witnessed by many at the 2010 Star Magic Ball between Gerald and Kim when Gerald escorted and left the Ball with Bea Alonzo instead of Kim Chiu.  


There is a deliberate  distortion of reality  wherein  the fans faced with an unacceptable  reality staring them in the face refuse to accept such reality instead boost this new distorted reality with a warped perception of current events.  There is no arguing with them.  They just cannot be dissuaded  even  with  Gerald himself claiming that he is  still pursuing Sarah Geronimo or that Kim Chiu is already with Xian.

Gerald Anderson denies claims that he has already stopped pursuing Sarah Geronimo

6/27/2012 11:00 AM

by: Bernie Franco  http://www.push.com.ph/features/8071/gerald-anderson-denies-claims-that-he-has-already-stopped-pursuing-sarah-geronimo/

  "Xian has met Kim’s family from Cebu. Kim has met Xian’s mom and grandmother. Xian said, no regular, ever gets introduced to his family. He said that’s reserved only for someone “special” and then he looked at Kim and smiled. Kim smiled back.” http://www.balitangamerica.tv/filam-fans-go-crazy-over-xian-lim-kim-chiu-loveteam-2/

Gerald is anticipating a love scene with Kim in his Star Magic movie with him.  Kim has kept her thoughts to herself.  Kim is more reticent and her latest ASAP appearances, there is no small talk with Gerald; none of the warmth normally reserved for a love one is seen; she has instead Xian on her side; it is Xian who accompanies her back to her dressing room; Xian who stands beside her in a spiel; she is observed resisting repeated urgings from Piolo and Maja preferring instead to stand beside Piolo even hanging on to his arm.  Kim is very discreet.  Gerald is publicly saying he is courting Sarah; I can only think that Kim is mindful of what Sarah and her fans would say and perhaps of Xian as well.

Actors' lives  can be so difficult; devoid of privacy they move under the watchful eye of fans reading their expressions, their demeanor; twitting their whereabouts, taking their  pics and releasing them into social networks and yet the fans are also their indirect source of income and support.  Fans are also a source of joy; the need for adulation and admiration  runs deep in all of us and to actors, the fans provide a boundless source.  Fans can also be a source of aggravation if they cannot anymore deal with the realities of the actors lives; if they even come to  point to dictate whom  they should be with in life  and if this type fans are crossed they can turn from admiring fans to fearsome bashers and hopefully only virtual enemies.
                                                     

CTO Kim and Xian - ASAP 2012- KimXi fans.

    CTO   Kim and Xian with some KimXis 1-13-12

 CTO  Xian in California  with some fans.

As a fan, I cannot be objective in my assessment of fans and how they should comport themselves around the actors they admire.  I can only go back to   what I learned from childhood--from my mother, the Golden Rule. "Do unto others as you would have others do unto you".  "Be kind, be loving always", from a friend.  "Be good," from my father. " Be yourself, but don't abuse", from my brother.  "Love one another as I have loved you", from Jesus.  "Pray, pray, pray", from Mama Mary. These tenets have held me in good stead for years.

 From Aristotle ,  there should be "Moderation in all things."  "No high expectation that there will be no  huge disappointments", is just something, I imbibed from my years of dealing with people. I have applied these to my KimXi fan life.  Even if I wish  to see Kim and Xian together forever, the love  I have in my KimXi heart   for both Kim and Xian allows them the freedom to choose THE ONE.  I can only  wish  their  happiness  solo, with each other or with another. 




                                          CTO       And I love her by the Beatles

As a former Kimerald, then a KimBao, now a KimXi, I flow in the reality of Kim and her pursuits; being  happy where  Kim is happy being together with Xian who listens to all her problems and makes her laugh all the time and happy for and with Xian who has finally found the woman who understands and makes  him happy  in Kim .  Their lives  intersected and virtually my own with theirs;  mine born out of need to relieve life's stresses...theirs  at a time when Kim was at the lowest ebb of her life, missing a boyfriend and a loveteam simultaneously; Xian, needing to have a break to set his career in motion from the inertia of rest it was in ; each need filled, pain assuaged, in God's will and grace. The fan and the stars being each other's source of life's happiness. God is good all the time!

                             CTO - You Raise me Up by Josh Groban

                                            

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